30 days down. 16 more to go.
I feel like I've grown spiritually. My life feels like its in such a rush. Older people tell me that the real world is even more intense, but as you age, you get accustomed to it.
Is not what I am experiencing real?
I could blab about my shortcomings, but one thing I have learned during Lent is to stop getting so worked up and just slow down even when I am in the fast lane. Sometimes it's those decelerations that make you realize that in an effort to improve the future, I am missing the present. My "shortcomings" blind me from my blessings. Its like I've been acting like Haman in the book of Esther. His pride and malice brought about his downfall and I hate to admit it, but I see some of my own actions through Haman.
Do I miss fast food?
Kind of. It's empty calories. I have gotten up and stayed up to cook myself chicken breasts and whatnot so that I can eat it during the week. Not only has my energy increased, but my wallet size as well. My belt size has decreased inversely. ^^
I've lost 8 lbs.
Do I miss soda?
You better believe it. Sodas from Sonic on a Saturday night were my getaways from the hectic week, but deriving equations has the same therapeutic effects.
Do I miss swearing?
Oh boy. I am glad that I am putting a full effort on this day in and day out. The discipline goes hand in hand with slowing down to smell the roses along life's pathway. I have become more articulate, and my mood that much milder.
The question arises... Will I pick these things back up once Lent is over? Probably, but in this past month, I have geared more toward what I think is the path I should be walking. It feels better than the "vices" that I gave up during Lent. Will the F-Bomb slip? Almost certainly. I am only human :( Will I chug a cool Cherry Limeade? Yes. Will I eat a Triple Meat Triple Cheese? Of course, but not on the regular, or weekly.
If you finished reading this, I hope you enjoyed a held by the hand tour of my not so much dark mind
